My First Country Single...

Some how my heart has embraced the melody of country western music and my soul has begun singing with all the twang that my voice cannot muster. As I made my journey down the hallway toward that place where I attempt to sleep, a prayer in the form of lyrics that earlier I couldn't force enough creativity to produce came with the a splendor of a CMT top 10.

While it is typically my nature to immediately dispel any thought that is accompanied by pedal-steel guitar, this thought needed to be shared. They are not complete and probably will not be anytime soon, but in their rawness there is a truth that I need to hold on to right now.

You'd think that I'd lived enough
that I'd have something worth saying now
You'd think that I'd dreamed enough
that I'd quit or they'd go away

I want to do great things
God help me with the small.

God help me with the small. How quickly do we forget that? Some how we convince ourselves that:

A. Somehow we can just go straight from mediocre to great.

B. Only the big matters

C. We we have the power to accomplish anything within ourselves.

That relates to me in a few straight forward ways:

A. I have to write a bunch of crappy songs in order to write one great song. Creativity takes works. I often forget that. I want instant gratification. Hit song, now. Award winning design in 2 minutes. Write a book on an airplane ride. Solve the world's problems with one blog. One small step at a time. That is how you get there.

B. It is not all about the end goal. The journey matters. The organizing, the planning, the little jobs that you do not want to do because they are tedious or just plan suck; these are things that make a project, a worship service, or an organization great.

C. I only breathe because God makes it so. There is nothing that I or anyone can do without His strength. He is all powerful; I have no power. Anything that I do is only because He permits it. Without His grace, I would cease to exist.

Where is the thing you hoping for instant gratification? What is the small that you have been overlooking or avoiding? What are you trying to do by your own power?